Something that we will all eventually realize – What is Life?
Life is unpredictable and I know this is supposed to be a common knowledge. But sometimes, we get stuck at our mundane lives of the same routine waking up, going to work, sleeping then repeating cycle every single day. You expect the same things again and again until something unexpected comes knocking us down.
When the unexpected arrives
We received a phone call, they told us that my uncle just passed away from cancer a few moments ago. But before that my father suddenly had an urge to visit them yesterday even though we originally planned to go on the next day. My uncle said his goodbyes and I have never seen my father break down and cried so hard. In fact, I have never seen him be like that before. It was the saddest thing I have ever seen in my entire life.
I know that I don’t have much attachment and bond with them but I can really feel their pain. I can feel every bit of tears and sadness. I saw how my uncle struggled with every breath and my dad can’t even stand seeing him in pain, it just hurts too much. It really moved me. Seeing those red eyes of my uncle’s wife, my grandmother who can’t even look straight in the eye without bursting into tears, my uncle’s innocent five year old kid who seemed oblivious about everything. I don’t know how they will be able to explain it to him. I wonder how he can handle the concept of death and realize the finality of it.
What’s the purpose of all this?
I never thought I would have witnessed this kind of scene in my life. I thought this was just something that happens to movies. I don’t understand life or how cruel it can be. Sometimes, I try to give meaning by it. People say everything happens for a reason. What reason is this?
One thing I learned is that there are things beyond our control, there are things that are beyond our capacity to understand, some things just remain a mystery and constantly asking these questions would confuse us and it will not lead to a definite answer.
Why do we exist? What is the meaning of life? What is the purpose of life? Is it more than just living and breathing? Are we the ones who are supposed to find it ourselves?
Why bad things happen to other people? Why does it feel like life is playing a cruel joke to us? Why is life so short? What happens after we die?
I don’t know the answers to these. Maybe life is too short to keep asking. We should just make the best of it instead of worrying too much about the future. Live at the present. We humans worry too much, we worry about paying bills, we worry about what other people would think of us, we worry about what the future might hold. We just worry too much that it consumes most of our time.
Truth is, we never know how much time we have left. Should we spend every moment of it thinking and worrying about how much time we have left?
I know that it feels hard to let go. We are mostly bound by earthly attachments and possessions. We never realize that everything else is just temporary and we don’t know what happens next after that. These constant worrying makes us feel scared, it makes us feel sad and confused. It just leaves us asking “why?”
Life is a one-time experience that we cannot pause, playback or do over again. Maybe instead of asking why, we should just live. Just do every single thing we want while we can, just enjoy life to the fullest, live with no regrets. If you want to do something just do it,if you want to say something to a certain someone, just say it. Get on with it and when your time comes,you’ll know you’ve done it all and you’ll be ready and you’ll know you are at peace.
“Yesterday was history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift. That’s why it is called present.”